I Remember When...

I remember when…

The idea of a Facebook page for my business was terrifying to me

I remember when…

Before every single session, I would get extreme anxiety

I remember when…

Putting what I did into words made me stutter and blush

I remember when…

No one knew my gifts or what I was capable of

I remember when…

My palms would sweat, inner child freaking out, and I still pushed through

You never realize how far you have come until you look back at memories of what you once let almost deter you. As much as these things are about the external world, it is also very much about me. How much of my potency was I willing to hold? How much of myself was I willing to surrender to? For a long time, it all scared the f*ck out of me. How could people relate to me anymore if I barely understood what I was doing? My mantra for the longest time was “be afraid and do it anyway.”

I am not afraid anymore.

But I hold so much compassion and understanding for the version of Tawny that had to break through those self-imposed barriers and limited beliefs. And I still don’t know what I am doing. But I know what it feels like. And I trust that others who are searching for what I can provide, will be drawn to me like a magnet.

These words are for you if you are on the cusp of change but are unwilling (or not sure how) to fully surrender. If the idea of what you could be and what you could do terrifies you. Or even if you can't put it into words, the inkling is there, just out of tangible reach. Being afraid is a perfectly normal ego response designed to keep you safe. But if you lead with your heart – full of purity and compassion – what is there to be afraid of? Only the limitations of what we think we need.

As we draw nearer to the solar eclipse and New Moon on Saturday, keep noticing what has been coming up for you lately. The reflections, the introspection, the “aha” moments, the memories…and let it settle into your heart. What are you avoiding out of fear? What is calling to you to discover more about yourself? Don’t be afraid. Saturday’s energy can already be felt. It is a bubbling energy from the depths of your energy; pushing up to propel you forward once it's released. There is mass change emerging not only collectively, but individually. The shifts can bring forward momentum and divine alignment into your life. If you are brave enough to listen.