Do what you can. But at least try.

I feel very fortunate to live where I can give time and effort to my spiritual practice. I am not running for my life, living in terror, and only able to process basic needs such as food, water, and shelter. My fight or flight response is quite underactive living in Canada and being a white female. I am very blessed.

However it still sometimes feels like not enough.

Instagram is great to bring people together but it also is easy to fall into a comparison trap because I am not anything like some of the other intuitive healers and reiki practitioners.

For starters I have two kids, a husband, and a full-time job outside of my reiki practice. I will never be able to escape to the Appalachians and dance naked every full moon to embody my inner goddess. I mean maybe...just not right now.

Fact is, I am doing what I can with what I have. I know that I am fortunate to be in the position I am in. However it still sometimes feels like not enough. I have to keep reminding myself that I am doing the best that I can. Also recognizing that my journey was to have both my babies before I was 30 and navigate my spiritual business within that framework. I was not supposed to be the person that only had to live for themselves and devote all their waking hours to their spiritual practice. Mine looks different, and that's okay. I have other life experience and gifts created from my own journey that can only come through a lived experience. The point is that I am still showing up. I'm still trying.

From conversations with a few different people in this past week, there has been a common theme that I have noticed. This feeling of trying and how we all have different experiences with it.

What is the harm in just trying? Trying something new or different. Being seen trying can be a catalyst for someone else's change even. Just by you doing the thing, it creates a ripple effect of others being prompted to try something of their own. Previous generations seriously let the expectations of others and society dictate what is possible and what can or cannot be done. But what if that was all just a belief imposed upon us to stay small? To stay afraid. To not pursue our dreams because of the fear of embarrassment of being seen even trying something that is outside the imposed expectations?

F**k that. Even if you try a sample just to know it's not for you. Isn't that the beauty of life? Trying new things and discovering experiences for ourselves? We always say to children that they don't know if they don't try. Whether that's a new food, a new playground, or making friends. When did this sense of trying become something to be ashamed of? When did this idea of perfection muddle the whole journey? If it's something that feeds your soul, does it have to be perfect? Whose perception of perfect are we even subscribing to? The spiritual person running naked in the woods? There is not one box that everyone's journey can fit into and so, the essence of trying will of course look different for everyone. So why are we sometimes even afraid to begin trying?

What would you do if you could shift your mindset to not be afraid to be seen trying? If that fear and expectation was just gone, what would change? Don't be afraid to be seen trying. Sometimes, it's the next step in your journey. Or not. And that's okay too.